bawah.

makin nak habis final year, makin pemalas.

the motivation to start writing my academic reflection, is just not there. yet.

i don't know what keeps me procrastinate. too many things in ma head, too many things to be done, yet so little time left. and i'm still here, buang masa dengan blog yang hanya menanti masa.

i'm losing ma grip.




a booster is all i need at the moment.

just 2 minutes.

alhamdulillah, last week marked the end of my practicum. :)

happy yet sad, indeed it was a great experience to be in school for that 3 months. how time flies!

so now, i'm left with (plus minus) one month. inshaAllah, will be back for good this coming 18th, teheee!

in the meantime, will be quite busy with lots and lots of event coming, dinner sampai dua kena attend, camping BIG wajib final year, series of meetings with the lecturers and course coordinator, well. i guess one month tu macam a blink of eye je nanti.

whatever it is, final year cuma tinggal the final month. and then i'll be free, free like a bird! eh bukan, free like a penganggur should it be :p

plus, keep the positive you everyday, qistina. why? lately nih pegi kedai je, "Terima kasih KAK, nanti datang lagi ye." tak pun, "KAK nak order ape?" mungkin dah ada kedut kedut stress kot kat muka. dah hilang seri awet (awek) muda dah :(

till then, more updates coming soon! (ecececey macam ada orang baca blog picisan ceniii, booo!)

take care pepol, all good inshaAllah :)

uji.

tak tau nak cakap nak rasa apa sekarang.

rasa macam sedang diuji dengan tahap paling hebat pernah dapat seumur hidup 22 tahun ni.

pernah tak rasa, macam tak tau nak describe apa apa pun? at one point, i just want to give up life, just that. and i mean it very well now. i just.. don't care.



rasa penat sangat. dealing with emotions, dengan nak fikirnya lagi. too many things going on. and when this happens, the only thing i could think of is home. :(

tahan sikit je lagi, qistina :(

budak suka senyum

i'm left with 8 days for practicum, weehu!

just a random post about this one student. this kid, i name him Kid A. seriously, selama dua bulan i've been teaching them, the only thing yang dia buat is just... sengih like seriously, sengih all day long. tak pernah tengok sehari atau satu minit dia bermuram durja, can you imagine that? mungkin masa mak dia mengandungkan dia, hormon gembira itu melimpah ruah, mungkin.

and one day, secara tak sengaja, cikgu terfikir satu approach classroom management. "The Military Approach" i would call it.

Teacher : Okay now, here, in front of you is no longer Miss Qistina. Here, is Commander Qistina. Now everyone, if I'm the Commander, who should you be? SOLDIERS, stand up, in line! One straight line! No talking, no smiles, muka kena serius! Ada ke askar senyum senyum?

Kids : TAKDE CIKGU!

Teacher : Good. Now, cikgu akan lalu depan kamu, siapa yang masih main main, cikgu panggil keluar barisan. Askar kena muka garang, siapa senyum... (the teacher's eyes caught this kid still smiling, sengih macam kerang busuk) HAAA, KAMU. Why are you still smiling? Cikgu cakap apa tadi? Askar boleh senyum ke?

Kid A : *still smiling* errr, cikgu... Errrr. Cikgu, tak boleh la cikgu...

Teacher : WHY YOU CAN'T? (masih boleh tahan gelak)

Other kids : Sebab.. Dia memang tak boleh kalau tak senyum cikgu. Dia memang ceni cikgu. Tak dapat buat apa apa.

Teacher : Okay, kamu cikgu maafkan. Cuma kamu jangan cakap, senyum nampak gigi je. Jangan ada suara, boleh?

Kid A : *masih senyum*

Agaknya cikgu kalau nak marah, tak boleh depan kamu. Nanti marah cikgu terbantut. Haha

Plus minus 2 weeks left, kids. Teacher makin sayang nak tinggal kamu wuwuw