been fighting against my own self.
but ended up, hurting more.
and that's when i made this one decision.
to get these things over.
:)
i'm not giving in anymore, 'cause everytime i do, these things leave me nothing but tears. how sad, this crybaby gonna be forever the crybabyyy
just kidding :D
p/s : 2014 is coming, i'm feeling 23. well, sort of :p
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Friday, December 27, 2013
manusia semakin pemalas
realiti zaman sekarang.
tengok je la teknologi sekarang. bukan nak salahkan teknologi... tapi, pada padalah.
contoh paling simpel.
waktu awal awal balik rumah for good, perasan ada satu perkakas dapur baru.
periuk macam rice cooker, tapi lagi canggih boleh masak bermacam macam jenis nasi, apam balik, or even lauk pauk, dalam masa.. 10 minit!
10 minit tu, kira paling ekspress la aku rasa, dah la main campak campak, tutup periuk dan tadaaa! ready to be served.
so kerja memasak dari jadi dua jam, tinggal 30 minit. dah mana tak jadi pemalas heh
tak masuk bab smartphones lagi.
ibu baru beli satu, and to my surprise, siap sign up for instagram dan whatsapp. sebab apa? whatsapp tu nanti GB nak bagi info senang, instagram tu boleh tengok update anak anak dan anak sedara. (in other words, STALKER ALERT!)
tapi ini takde kaitan dengan pemalas pun.
sebenarnya ada. bila dok serumah pun, ibu boleh whatsapp tanya, "Bila nak start masak ni?"
sebenarnya motif post ni, nak buktikan hipotesis, semakin tahun meningkat, manusia semakin pemalas.
tu je. kbai
tengok je la teknologi sekarang. bukan nak salahkan teknologi... tapi, pada padalah.
contoh paling simpel.
waktu awal awal balik rumah for good, perasan ada satu perkakas dapur baru.
periuk macam rice cooker, tapi lagi canggih boleh masak bermacam macam jenis nasi, apam balik, or even lauk pauk, dalam masa.. 10 minit!
10 minit tu, kira paling ekspress la aku rasa, dah la main campak campak, tutup periuk dan tadaaa! ready to be served.
so kerja memasak dari jadi dua jam, tinggal 30 minit. dah mana tak jadi pemalas heh
tak masuk bab smartphones lagi.
ibu baru beli satu, and to my surprise, siap sign up for instagram dan whatsapp. sebab apa? whatsapp tu nanti GB nak bagi info senang, instagram tu boleh tengok update anak anak dan anak sedara. (in other words, STALKER ALERT!)
tapi ini takde kaitan dengan pemalas pun.
sebenarnya ada. bila dok serumah pun, ibu boleh whatsapp tanya, "Bila nak start masak ni?"
sebenarnya motif post ni, nak buktikan hipotesis, semakin tahun meningkat, manusia semakin pemalas.
tu je. kbai
Monday, December 16, 2013
what's wrong?
these few days, i have experienced severe headache and chestpain.
kepala berdenyut kemain. sakitnya.. tak boleh nak describe. eyes get blurry, mata cam berpinar-pinar for no apparent reason. and it happen only to the left side of the kepala.
chestpain? sometimes getting worse, sometimes getting better. depends. but still, it hurts so much just at that same point, the right side of the chest.
i wonder why. to go for check-ups is definitely a no. 'cause i've been doing good so far, and the symptoms are just not clear.
kepala berdenyut kemain. sakitnya.. tak boleh nak describe. eyes get blurry, mata cam berpinar-pinar for no apparent reason. and it happen only to the left side of the kepala.
chestpain? sometimes getting worse, sometimes getting better. depends. but still, it hurts so much just at that same point, the right side of the chest.
i wonder why. to go for check-ups is definitely a no. 'cause i've been doing good so far, and the symptoms are just not clear.
how two different person, matters.
Alhamdulillah, just got back from kuching. Family vacation i would say, even terpaksa pegi lambat due to the interview date yang clash dengan tarikh keramat itu. Tak keramat sangat ahhh kalau hari interview tu dah gelabah semacam, hek eleh. Boleh pulak buat malu depan pegawai, pegi silap bawak fail sape suruh -_-'
But this post is not about interview.
This post, is about how two different person, matters. Ecewah, kelas kau tajuk, haha
The last day was the most hectic. Separuh hari pegi serikin, shopping, walked for about 3kms, pegi balik pegi balik. Then rush back untuk packing. At 3 kena keluar dah dari accom, pukul 4 kena hantar kereta. And flight delay sampai pukul 8. and we were like.. delay? hmmm
Takpela. Pegi je airport, we decided to bag-drop, so that tak payah usung beg merata. There were 2 families; my family and Mak Ngah's family. We went to 2 different counters, and all went well so far. Sampai la at this one time, this female officer cakap dekat my family, "Oh, family cik tak dapat check-in lagi nih, this is too early, flight cik delay."
And i turned to the other family, they were doing their check-ins!
So i straightaway told her, "But that family boleh je? Diorang pun pegi penang jugak. What's the difference? Why we can't drop the bags yet?"
She replied, "Oh, sebab tu counter lain cik. Saya taknak susah susah."
And i was like... speechless to hear such reply!
Untuk mengelakkan sebarang kejadian yang tak dihingini, i decided maybe we should just pegi dekat this one corner, unpack the things (sebab exceed jugak waktu timbang) and just.. calm down.
A few minutes later, family Makngah pun datang. They asked, why can't we go check-ins yet? After explaining the situation in the most 'polite' way i can think of, they suggested for us to go to the counter yang diorang pegi.
Dan layanan this officer sangat tiptop!
Kitorang siap unpack depan counter, tanya macam macam pasal flight, and he even explained about claiming insurance untuk flight delay!
I can't help but to stress the 'so much' when i thanked him. "Thank you SO MUCH, SO MUCH!" for the differences that you've brought, officer. Hensem, boleh tahan ahhh. But the thing that you did, it was beyond awesome. Kalau semua orang dalam dunia boleh berkerja tiptop ceni, aman damai sejahtera sentiasa. Takdenye orang nak kata, "Eh, syarikat penerbangan A tu kerek ahhh! Service ntahpape! Dahla selalu delay, harap je the best low-cost airline, ever! Eh sape makan cili terasa pedas, uhuk uhuk"
Now, let's put this case to how we see Islam. Bayangkan, these two officers, dalam syarikat penerbangan yang bernama Islam airlines. The way they portray their own self sebagai the airlines' ambassador, how they interact with other people, etc. Can you see how two different person, matters?
I have seen those, and I realize, how small things like this can affect the big things, really. Fikir fikirkan, dan selamat beramal!
But this post is not about interview.
This post, is about how two different person, matters. Ecewah, kelas kau tajuk, haha
The last day was the most hectic. Separuh hari pegi serikin, shopping, walked for about 3kms, pegi balik pegi balik. Then rush back untuk packing. At 3 kena keluar dah dari accom, pukul 4 kena hantar kereta. And flight delay sampai pukul 8. and we were like.. delay? hmmm
Takpela. Pegi je airport, we decided to bag-drop, so that tak payah usung beg merata. There were 2 families; my family and Mak Ngah's family. We went to 2 different counters, and all went well so far. Sampai la at this one time, this female officer cakap dekat my family, "Oh, family cik tak dapat check-in lagi nih, this is too early, flight cik delay."
And i turned to the other family, they were doing their check-ins!
So i straightaway told her, "But that family boleh je? Diorang pun pegi penang jugak. What's the difference? Why we can't drop the bags yet?"
She replied, "Oh, sebab tu counter lain cik. Saya taknak susah susah."
And i was like... speechless to hear such reply!
Untuk mengelakkan sebarang kejadian yang tak dihingini, i decided maybe we should just pegi dekat this one corner, unpack the things (sebab exceed jugak waktu timbang) and just.. calm down.
A few minutes later, family Makngah pun datang. They asked, why can't we go check-ins yet? After explaining the situation in the most 'polite' way i can think of, they suggested for us to go to the counter yang diorang pegi.
Dan layanan this officer sangat tiptop!
Kitorang siap unpack depan counter, tanya macam macam pasal flight, and he even explained about claiming insurance untuk flight delay!
I can't help but to stress the 'so much' when i thanked him. "Thank you SO MUCH, SO MUCH!" for the differences that you've brought, officer. Hensem, boleh tahan ahhh. But the thing that you did, it was beyond awesome. Kalau semua orang dalam dunia boleh berkerja tiptop ceni, aman damai sejahtera sentiasa. Takdenye orang nak kata, "Eh, syarikat penerbangan A tu kerek ahhh! Service ntahpape! Dahla selalu delay, harap je the best low-cost airline, ever! Eh sape makan cili terasa pedas, uhuk uhuk"
Now, let's put this case to how we see Islam. Bayangkan, these two officers, dalam syarikat penerbangan yang bernama Islam airlines. The way they portray their own self sebagai the airlines' ambassador, how they interact with other people, etc. Can you see how two different person, matters?
I have seen those, and I realize, how small things like this can affect the big things, really. Fikir fikirkan, dan selamat beramal!
Sunday, December 8, 2013
more happy thoughts coming in :)
maybe it's time.
to move on :)
too much emotions, too much feelings in this space lately. it's not that i can't really get over all the problems. no.
the thing is, i'm the one who choose to think, and think and think, again and again.
overthinking orang tua tua cakap.
so, here's one of options i can think of; a new blog where nobody can find me :p
well, obviously i'm not that kind of person who really tells the whole world everything - the problems, etc. it's just, i feel there's a need for me to write it somewhere, to let go the negative thoughts and feelings.
i do believe, Allah is the best listener, yes, He is :) after all, He stays with me throughout the times - be it waktu susah or senang, He is always there. and thank you for this greatest blessing; for a great reminder that nobody's gonna stay forever, but just You. :)
so, here's to the old, cool blog -
you rocks! i know you always will, sebab ada tuan ceni kan :p i won't forget you, you keep me laughing so hard when i read the older posts, again and again! i never know i was that so-immature-young-teenager-yang-baru-nak-up, sort of :p well, kudos for the great job, not that i won't visit you anymore, definitely no :) maybe i'll still update here, from time to time, we'll see how it goes :p
p/s : let's just keep the happy, exciting updates coming up here, shall we? :) another blog, mungkin for another purpose. heh :p
senyum besaq besaq everyone, you need it so badly! (especially untuk orang orang monday blues hihihi)
to move on :)
too much emotions, too much feelings in this space lately. it's not that i can't really get over all the problems. no.
the thing is, i'm the one who choose to think, and think and think, again and again.
overthinking orang tua tua cakap.
so, here's one of options i can think of; a new blog where nobody can find me :p
well, obviously i'm not that kind of person who really tells the whole world everything - the problems, etc. it's just, i feel there's a need for me to write it somewhere, to let go the negative thoughts and feelings.
i do believe, Allah is the best listener, yes, He is :) after all, He stays with me throughout the times - be it waktu susah or senang, He is always there. and thank you for this greatest blessing; for a great reminder that nobody's gonna stay forever, but just You. :)
so, here's to the old, cool blog -
you rocks! i know you always will, sebab ada tuan ceni kan :p i won't forget you, you keep me laughing so hard when i read the older posts, again and again! i never know i was that so-immature-young-teenager-yang-baru-nak-up, sort of :p well, kudos for the great job, not that i won't visit you anymore, definitely no :) maybe i'll still update here, from time to time, we'll see how it goes :p
p/s : let's just keep the happy, exciting updates coming up here, shall we? :) another blog, mungkin for another purpose. heh :p
senyum besaq besaq everyone, you need it so badly! (especially untuk orang orang monday blues hihihi)
Saturday, December 7, 2013
sabar, selagi boleh.
people may look at us in different ways, sometimes mungkin the way we never expect them to see.
bila ditanya first impression, most of them may say something that is totally out of your mind.
in my case, yes.
doakan. sebab ada masanya, mungkin orang nampak kita happy, kita senyum.
walhal dalam hati, toksah nak kata.
kerana aku juga punya hati.
the worst is, rasa nak give up tu sama banyak dengan rasa nak fight balik. cuma masih fikir hormat dan sayang. cuma masih ada rasa percaya dengan Tuhan. cuma..
cuma mampu cengeng dan terus cengeng. dua puluh tiga dan masih?
ya, dua puluh tiga dan masih cengeng. maaf, buang masa baca.
bila ditanya first impression, most of them may say something that is totally out of your mind.
in my case, yes.
doakan. sebab ada masanya, mungkin orang nampak kita happy, kita senyum.
walhal dalam hati, toksah nak kata.
kerana aku juga punya hati.
the worst is, rasa nak give up tu sama banyak dengan rasa nak fight balik. cuma masih fikir hormat dan sayang. cuma masih ada rasa percaya dengan Tuhan. cuma..
cuma mampu cengeng dan terus cengeng. dua puluh tiga dan masih?
ya, dua puluh tiga dan masih cengeng. maaf, buang masa baca.
Thursday, December 5, 2013
what a day
today.. i just can't describe what i've gone through, today.
a lot.
my day started early today, i went to see the doctor. lepas subuh gerak pegi jetty ayah hantar, dari jetty naik ferry dengan ibu, sampai terus berkejaran mencari bas paling awal untuk ke hospital. kenapa? kerana pasti ramai manusia di hospital kalau lambat tiba. to cut the story short, yes, it went well, smooth, mesra cekap dan betul. mata bengkak after kena titis ubat, dan sepanjang perjalanan pulang (naik bas, naik feri), my vision was blurred. like sangat blurred.
which cause.. headache.
then.. waktu atas feri, got the highlighted news of all; interview dates are out! and me being nervous and couldnt go online, so i asked my other friend to check for me. and it happened to be just right, as what i've expected.
my turn would be on 12th! this coming 12th, which clash dengan tarikh vacation 3 famili ke kuching sarawak dengan tourist guidenya... me.
with all the unsettled things; bookings, places to visit, dengan study untuk interview ke bulan tak sampai sampai pun ilham, headache bertambah teruk. everything's in a great mess. and all i could think of was; why me?
:(
along the way, i couldn't stop but to think. tears, tak payah cakap. i really, really tried my best, untuk tidak merungut. but i failed.
it was then when ibu tiba tiba bersuara.
"Allah takkan uji kalau Dia tak sayang."
automatik, empangan pecah serta merta. (tapi cover dengan shades la yang pasti, less obvious kan)
the rest of the case, let me keep it to myself. just to let you know, kadang kadang kita lupa, kita ni hamba je. dan Allah ada perancangan paling baik untuk mengingatkan kita, siapa hamba siapa Tuan.
"Ujian tu, nak uji kita ada iman atau tak. As simple as that."
a lot.
my day started early today, i went to see the doctor. lepas subuh gerak pegi jetty ayah hantar, dari jetty naik ferry dengan ibu, sampai terus berkejaran mencari bas paling awal untuk ke hospital. kenapa? kerana pasti ramai manusia di hospital kalau lambat tiba. to cut the story short, yes, it went well, smooth, mesra cekap dan betul. mata bengkak after kena titis ubat, dan sepanjang perjalanan pulang (naik bas, naik feri), my vision was blurred. like sangat blurred.
which cause.. headache.
then.. waktu atas feri, got the highlighted news of all; interview dates are out! and me being nervous and couldnt go online, so i asked my other friend to check for me. and it happened to be just right, as what i've expected.
my turn would be on 12th! this coming 12th, which clash dengan tarikh vacation 3 famili ke kuching sarawak dengan tourist guidenya... me.
with all the unsettled things; bookings, places to visit, dengan study untuk interview ke bulan tak sampai sampai pun ilham, headache bertambah teruk. everything's in a great mess. and all i could think of was; why me?
:(
along the way, i couldn't stop but to think. tears, tak payah cakap. i really, really tried my best, untuk tidak merungut. but i failed.
it was then when ibu tiba tiba bersuara.
"Allah takkan uji kalau Dia tak sayang."
automatik, empangan pecah serta merta. (tapi cover dengan shades la yang pasti, less obvious kan)
the rest of the case, let me keep it to myself. just to let you know, kadang kadang kita lupa, kita ni hamba je. dan Allah ada perancangan paling baik untuk mengingatkan kita, siapa hamba siapa Tuan.
"Ujian tu, nak uji kita ada iman atau tak. As simple as that."
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