life, so far

alhamdulillah, yesterday marked the end of Term 7 (which means the final sem is coming, weehu!). attended a talk on i-Think programme (well, teachers' stuffs), and only realized that all the hardships have GONE. just imagine, dulu dok bebel bebel sangat pasal research, semalam dah dapat balik dah research project tu. exam result; finger-crossed please, since ze lecturers said like this, "By 29th, if you don't get any call or message from us, you are all safe (no fail). And then you all will call me on the 30th saying thank you for not calling you." okay madam, noted! hihi

another significant (Wow! word) upcoming agenda is our seniors' grad. mungkinlah takde terasa heksaitednye ohmaiii this is my day sambil mata bersinar sinar bak iklan innershine. but to think of it in a way that i'll be there, soon :) next year, around this time, i'll be graduating (supposedly kat putrajaya as they will have it there this monday), with Allah's willing. semoga ijazah yang akan diperoleh itu bermanfaat untuk diri, dan selainnya. happy graduating, seniors! this is it, the moment we the students have been waiting for :))

another major concern (for now, yes) is the fact that heyyy! practicum is coming so soon, y'all! cuti 3 minggu, and the first 2 weeks lepas cuti; will be full with lots and lots and lots of programmes and workshops, believe me. lepas the 2 hectic weeks, here comes the most awaited (errr, not so) part of the final year; PRACTICUM! 3 months you'll be at school, trying your best to adapt to the school environment, start practise etika perguruan and stuffs like that (errr) and be the teacher you wanna be. so future anak murids, please please please. jangan expect Miss Qis nak senyum masa minggu pertama, kedua or maybe the early weeks of the practicum, i'm not gonna tolerate any misbehaviours, hokayyy? (insert emoticon muka garang tapi trying to act cute though, lol) hey, i'm practising my classroom management skills, just so you know. :p

oh lupa. starting tomorrow, le familia will be here, in Kuching for five days. doakan semoga selamat dalam permusafiran, dan doakan jugak supaya this tourist guide takdela nak bawak diorang sesat jalan pastu "La... Ingat dok Sarawak lama dah, tau la jalan kot sini. Ni kena depends kat GPS, apecer der?" ini possible dialog ayah, haha.

will update more, soon! stay safe, take care and happy holiday-ing! (errr, applicable kepada guru guru, bakal guru, guru nak pegi praktikum next sem, dan anak murids, ehem! hihi)

keep dreaming,

and that's where everything starts.

:)

that same exact feeling when

penyakit yang sama berulang ulang. dah terbiasa, sampaikan the best way to get over it; tidur. bad qistina, bad huhu.

rabu ni final exam, the one and only paper left. but untuk cakap i have started doing the revision, that is just too mainstream.

fokus. doa. motivation.

those are the important things i need now. hope for a better nation, for a better qistina. eh.

"Allah won't give you more than you can bear. He might let you bend, but He won't let you break."
:'(

the end.

baru submit the final last assignment for this final year of degree last few days. pheww, what a relief. alhamdulillah, thanks be to Allah for making this journey worth fighting.

kalaulah Allah tak ilhamkan kekuatan tu, there's no way i could do this better. probably halfway, and quit, who knows. anything is possible with Allah's will, and for this, i believe i couldn't be any better than this tanpa izin Allah. :)


but to think about how i am going to end this year, i just don't know what to feel. mixed up; seronok sebab dah habis study lalu dewasa (lol!), sedih sebab i'm gonna miss these so soon, confused sebab a lot of things's going on, and many more feelings, just name it.

everything seems blurry and so serious when it comes to future. you never know what will happen there, but the thought always, forever gives you the chills.

the chills of you-don't-know-what-to-expect,-and-yet-you're-expecting-for-something-to-happen. and-yet,-you-still-want-to-expect.

expect the unexpected. it works both ways; samada you expect the unexpected and accept it for the sake of redha, and if you get something you expect, mesti redha dengan gembiranya.

the key word here is; redha. how to actually nurture that feeling redha, when you keep pushing it away, putting up so much hopes and expectations on things you think you can handle, when the real fact is; Allah is the best planner?

nak ada rasa redha tu, payahnya... hanya Dia yang tahu. masih mencuba, but at times like this.. i think i've failed for the zillionth times.

:(