the call.

last few weeks, had a brief chat with him. it was just a conversation of not to say heart-to-heart one, but just tanya khabar, and how he was doing so far. well, he didn't tell much, as expected, probably thinking it's not nice to let me know all the problems he might have.

but i know his feelings, 'cause i've been there. maybe not for the same reason, but yeah. i can feel you.

banyak sangat benda yang perlu di-achieve, and he's in a great dilemma. recently, he told me about his future planning; he is now saving money, planning to get a permanent job, and get married. that's his plan, the rationale is that people at his age should be doing all these, and he's the one who is still struggling at the moment. baru saving sikit, kerja masih kontrak, and then marriage? mestilah jauh lagi nak dapat fikir, and i feel bad for him.

if only i could help, at least do something to ease his burden.

just in time, something unexpected came.

Tok will be going to Mecca to perform her umrah this coming March, and he was asked to accompany Tok there. at first, he felt a bit reluctant and indecisive, just because he felt it was not the best, right time to go. with his condition, he thought it would be difficult for him to actually go there and spend his saving, when the real fact, the saving was meant for his future.

i couldn't believe my ears, and hearing to that, i replied, "You make the decision, so better make a good one. Bukan senang nak dapat peluang macam ni, and yet the future pun penting jugak. I know it's hard for you to choose, tapi percayalah, apa apa yang telah diputuskan selepas ini, that's the best for you."

and he chose to go there despite the fact that he's going to use some of his saving for the umrah trip.

suprisingly awesome how Allah has put all the things into places.

it was one of his dreams to be there, in front of Kaa'bah, and make duas. his past experiences uruskan orang nak pegi haji makes the urge to go there even stronger than ever. "All good, iA, i'm going to make lots of duas there, probably this is the best for me, for now."

and i said this to him, "Don't worry abang, duit boleh dicari. Tapi nak pegi rumah Allah? Once in a lifetime pun belum tentu tau dapat. Dah tu, doa depan Kaa'bah kot... okay jeles."

p/s ; he asked me, "Nak pesan pape nanti cakap la kat abang. IA abang boleh je." "Nak pesan suruh doa something boleh?" and i smiled. THE END. eh.