the first impression really matters, you know.
and i just learned that during your first week at school, segala tindak tanduk anda sebagai seorang guru baru akan menjadi perhatian, tatapan umum. confirm, muktamad, sungguh tak tipu.
and it happened to me that people will start judging you from head to toe, dari sekecil kecil nano kuman sampai sebesar besar paus paling besar; everything related to you, seriously.
an interesting conversation dengan seorang cikgu senior.
guru - guru pelatih : cikgu, we actually want to observe you, the way you manage the classroom.
guru senior : what? you want to observe me? *gelak kecil* you want to observe me for what?
habis, nak guna word ape lagi lah selain dari 'observe'? -_____-"
seriously, nanti bila dah jadi cikgu senior, i don't wanna be this kind of teacher who actually kinda demotivates new teachers in a way that makes us think we are no better than them. you are teachers, they are teachers, we are teachers. aren't we the same? what's the matter with "you all ada degree, you all belajar oversea" and so forth? like seriously, TEACHERS?
i don't really have problems with this. it's just something to ponder, and i keep thinking about this all the way back from school;
"Kalau betul la this is what gonna happen to me bila dah start posting... uhhh, i can't even imagine it. Teachers should do what they do best; inspire people. Rather than giving those negative first impressions about the profession, apa salahnya kalau kita saling tolong menolong? Yang lebih berpengalaman, share dan beri tunjuk ajar kepada yang baru. Yang semangat fresh fresh, kongsi idea idea baru up-to-date. Kan lebih mantoppp sistem pendidikan negara?"
cikgu pelatih pun akan jadi cikgu senior nanti, cikgu senior pun pernah jadi cikgu pelatih. fair and square, so peace yaww. *log out*
p/s : nanti dah jadi cikgu pencen, sape lah nak ajar cucu cicit piut miut? cikgu pelatih jugakkk. eh. kbai cikgu pelatih nak buat research proposal, semoga cikgu pelatih ini berjaya mengharungi hidup penuh onak duri kbai.