a blessing in disguise.

Ups and downs, that's life.

The biggest lie is when you says, "I am all good, everything is fine. Everything falls to the right places." Yes, that's just... nonsense.

The real thing is, you cry, you wipe away the tears, put on smiles, and the cycle keeps repeating again and again.

It shows, you're living the life the way it should be. The ups and DOWNS, remember?

"Ujian Allah tak beri kalau Dia tak sayang."

See things dengan kacamata Islam, please. Then only you know, that even the slighest trial Allah give to you, is actually a blessing in disguise.

True story. *tanda aman*

Sila, sila teacher, sila kembali ke bisnes utama.

semangat yang hilang

selepas 2 minggu cuti raya, penulis sudah selamat tiba di perantauan.

as usual. feeling-feeling pas cuti ni, dia punya rasa... serupa nak ulang balik momen sebelum cuti, boleh?

cuti raya kali ni, secara konklusinya, lain dari yang lain. feeling nak raya tu tak berapa nak ada macam dulu dulu time muda belia remaja. setakat feeling seronok jumpa sedara kengkawan, nak masuk dapuq, standard ah kot untuk anak perantau ceni.

tapi feeling tak best sikit ah, bila miss mini reunion time kenduri kawen schoolmates. rasa macam serupa dah tua satu pasai, rasa left out lagi sepasai. hmmmph nasib anak perantau memang ceniii

whatever it is, hidup di bumi Sarawak, tinggal lagi 3 bulan. kemon qistina, 3 months is not that long. 3 months and you're unofficially graduated for degree. (which means "Selamat Tanam Anggur!")

tolong semangat sikit boleh dakkk, teacher? hmph.

the hectic life awaits.

entahla. for some reasons, i don't feel quite right being me at the moment.

teaching and me, we never really get along that well. that was how i look back then, during my first week of practicum. i had the guts that i'm not going to survive this future - teaching, obviously just because tears kept rolling on the cheeks for quite few times. stressful, fatigue, expectations, yes. they were all the reasons for me not being confident at all. (and skinnier, i can feel diameter tangan makin berkurang)

until last thursday.

kali ketiga masuk kelas dan mengajar, i could feel this is about to end soon. hopeless, frustrated, just name it. all the negativity has taken me, for the fact that i aimlessly masuk mengajar those young children. up to this point, sometimes terlupa niat sebenar nak jadi cikgu. i kept asking to myself, "All this, nak impress sape sebenarnya? Lecturer? Guru pembimbing? Atau sape?"

and that's when the guru pembimbing told me something that "Seriously, you're saying that to me?!". selalunya lepas mengajar, i'll consult the guru pembimbing straightaway, just to ask for feedbacks and any improvement yang kena buat for the next lesson. but that day, she told me something different.

"I really admire your passion, your love to teach. I can see that you're adapting, well at least you're still trying, right? One thing I learn from you is you're so hardworking. I can tell that you are going to be the teacher who students will look up to, definitely."

and i was all.. speechless.

throughout my whole life, this is (so far) the one and only sincere comment made by this one stranger, and yet it makes me realize, that no matter what, just keep trying. no matter what. 'cause after all, buat semua ni sebab apa?

Allahu. :(

serius, rasa macam fake je, bila madam comment macam tu. because we know what we are doing, kita tahu takat mana kita dah usaha. and yet, people may see us in different ways (which mungkin kita tak rasa pun kita buat macam tu). and i know where i am standing now, what i have done so far. macam tak layak je dapat such inspiring comment camtu, yes, i do not deserve this madam.

but looking this at the bright side; are we going to let her think that way, and kita tak buat apa apa to prove that "Yes, I'm gonna be that kind of teacher,"? well, you can make a difference. yes, only you.

menginjak minggu ketiga, mohon doanya semoga apa yang madam katakan itu, itulah yang ada pada empunya diri. sebabnya, taknak la kan kalau orang bersungguh fikir kita ni paling penyabar, tapi the truth is.. bab complain nombor satu. T___T impression orang, kita nak jaga kan.. impression Allah? :'(

the first week

to be honest.. sape cakap jadi cikgu senang, meh sini nak luku kepala sikit. hamboih ingat nak ajaq anak oghang serupa nak train parrot cakap ka?

at times, the thought of giving up tu selalu ada. sampaikan setiap hari, after school, ibu ayah akan call just to ask about how i was coping at school for that day. imagine, everyday.. just to ask, "How's your school today, teacher? Everything alright? Ni kat mana? On the way balik rumah? *gelak jahat*" that's Dad psycho-ing me, ergh. -___-

too many things to think of, really. being a teacher, seriously, seriously, seriously will never be an easy job, trust me.

"but with passion and love, you'll find it easier."

tengah cuba nak develop, tolong doakan, please?

finally, it's final :)

it has been 4 days since the semester begins, and praise be to Allah, everything goes well so far.

memasuki semester 8, which indicates the 4th year, time really flies. most of rakan rakan sebaya, ramai yang dah grad, tengah kerja, tak kurang juga yang sedang menunggu kelahiran cahayamata. nampak permainan dia lagu mana? kalau standard orang dulu dulu, ini sudah boleh diconsider sebagai anak dara tua! okay, tak tua lagi qistina. 23 is just numbers, remember? okay abaikan kata kata makhluk ni.

frankly speaking, masa free untuk sem final ni takde ah banyak mana. packed dengan banyak outdoor events and programmes, serius. these two weeks, ada kursus pengurusan koko dan taklimat pre-practicum. the most highlighted event (ever!), mesti ahhh praktikum selama 3 bulan. 3 bulan tu, macam macam boleh jadi wei. nervous toksah habaq, tapi takpe. kita chill, lek lek luk. start 1 july sampai mid oct, memang busy dengan lesson plans, aktiviti sekolah, observations dari lecturers (gulp!), untuk 5 working days. nak free pun cuma weekends kot, tapi dengaq cerita sabtu hari koko sekolah. burn lagi sehari. maka, weekend cuma.. ahad. yeay! nampak tak kerja cikgu ni cena sebenarnya? dedikasi habis! (eh?!)

sekolah praktikum, well.. oh just nice. 30-45 minutes drive dari rumah sewa sekarang, the first impression; GB helpful, sekolah kecik (which means peluang untuk masuk kelas lagi banyak), and lokaliti dia, kawasan orang Bidayuh. kiri kanan gerejas, cuma jumpa 1 masjid along the way nak pegi sekolah. ayah memang dah pesan awai awai, "kamu jaga diri leklok, dok tempat orang lagu ni, satgi dok buat haru pulak, jenuh." ayah and his daddy's instinct. well, ayah.. this daughter of yours will be doing just fine, just fine with your duas, iA :)

then, lepas praktikum, a lot of stuffs coming in. dengan camping nya, program dental awareness lah, dinner(s), KISSM and the test, and many more scheduled programmes yang kena attend, that's gonna make the whole semester the busiest, ever. tak tahulah orang lain cena kan, but seriously, dah dapat rasa dah feeling feeling cikgu. aura tu takde ah lagi (pfffttt!), tapi last time waktu pegi sekolah ibu (my former primary school), cikgu cikgu situ mesti cakap.. "uihhh, dah besaq dah anak murid cikgu nih! dulu hingus hingus je, sekarang dah nak jadi rakan sejawat pulak." hingus hingus ni lemah ahh, rasa macam zaman persekolahan dulu selebet, selekeh dan sama waktu dengannya, errr.

entri kali nih panjangnya luar biasa sikit, bukan hape.. takut rindu kat tuan tanah je. yela, kan nak jadi "the busiest teacher ever", mana nak hupdate blog selalu dah pasni. entri emo emo tu, standard ah kot. haha

well oh well. mohon doanya, semoga dipermudahkan segalanya untuk semester ini. tak sabar rasanya nak masuk bulan november, kerana cuti 'panjang' bakal bermula, dan status akan bertukar menjadi.. penganggur! yeay :)

see you some other time, hearts! semoga semuanya baik baik saja, iA ;)

"Don't think too much, just don't. The busy life will keep you occupied."

words, please.

senyuman terukir, hanya di bibir.


biarlah, biar. biar hati itu terus menyimpan rahsia. kerana dia cuba untuk bahagia, meski hanya pura pura.

"Sabarlah duhai hati, cuba untuk memahami."

life, so far

alhamdulillah, yesterday marked the end of Term 7 (which means the final sem is coming, weehu!). attended a talk on i-Think programme (well, teachers' stuffs), and only realized that all the hardships have GONE. just imagine, dulu dok bebel bebel sangat pasal research, semalam dah dapat balik dah research project tu. exam result; finger-crossed please, since ze lecturers said like this, "By 29th, if you don't get any call or message from us, you are all safe (no fail). And then you all will call me on the 30th saying thank you for not calling you." okay madam, noted! hihi

another significant (Wow! word) upcoming agenda is our seniors' grad. mungkinlah takde terasa heksaitednye ohmaiii this is my day sambil mata bersinar sinar bak iklan innershine. but to think of it in a way that i'll be there, soon :) next year, around this time, i'll be graduating (supposedly kat putrajaya as they will have it there this monday), with Allah's willing. semoga ijazah yang akan diperoleh itu bermanfaat untuk diri, dan selainnya. happy graduating, seniors! this is it, the moment we the students have been waiting for :))

another major concern (for now, yes) is the fact that heyyy! practicum is coming so soon, y'all! cuti 3 minggu, and the first 2 weeks lepas cuti; will be full with lots and lots and lots of programmes and workshops, believe me. lepas the 2 hectic weeks, here comes the most awaited (errr, not so) part of the final year; PRACTICUM! 3 months you'll be at school, trying your best to adapt to the school environment, start practise etika perguruan and stuffs like that (errr) and be the teacher you wanna be. so future anak murids, please please please. jangan expect Miss Qis nak senyum masa minggu pertama, kedua or maybe the early weeks of the practicum, i'm not gonna tolerate any misbehaviours, hokayyy? (insert emoticon muka garang tapi trying to act cute though, lol) hey, i'm practising my classroom management skills, just so you know. :p

oh lupa. starting tomorrow, le familia will be here, in Kuching for five days. doakan semoga selamat dalam permusafiran, dan doakan jugak supaya this tourist guide takdela nak bawak diorang sesat jalan pastu "La... Ingat dok Sarawak lama dah, tau la jalan kot sini. Ni kena depends kat GPS, apecer der?" ini possible dialog ayah, haha.

will update more, soon! stay safe, take care and happy holiday-ing! (errr, applicable kepada guru guru, bakal guru, guru nak pegi praktikum next sem, dan anak murids, ehem! hihi)

keep dreaming,

and that's where everything starts.

:)

that same exact feeling when

penyakit yang sama berulang ulang. dah terbiasa, sampaikan the best way to get over it; tidur. bad qistina, bad huhu.

rabu ni final exam, the one and only paper left. but untuk cakap i have started doing the revision, that is just too mainstream.

fokus. doa. motivation.

those are the important things i need now. hope for a better nation, for a better qistina. eh.

"Allah won't give you more than you can bear. He might let you bend, but He won't let you break."
:'(

the end.

baru submit the final last assignment for this final year of degree last few days. pheww, what a relief. alhamdulillah, thanks be to Allah for making this journey worth fighting.

kalaulah Allah tak ilhamkan kekuatan tu, there's no way i could do this better. probably halfway, and quit, who knows. anything is possible with Allah's will, and for this, i believe i couldn't be any better than this tanpa izin Allah. :)


but to think about how i am going to end this year, i just don't know what to feel. mixed up; seronok sebab dah habis study lalu dewasa (lol!), sedih sebab i'm gonna miss these so soon, confused sebab a lot of things's going on, and many more feelings, just name it.

everything seems blurry and so serious when it comes to future. you never know what will happen there, but the thought always, forever gives you the chills.

the chills of you-don't-know-what-to-expect,-and-yet-you're-expecting-for-something-to-happen. and-yet,-you-still-want-to-expect.

expect the unexpected. it works both ways; samada you expect the unexpected and accept it for the sake of redha, and if you get something you expect, mesti redha dengan gembiranya.

the key word here is; redha. how to actually nurture that feeling redha, when you keep pushing it away, putting up so much hopes and expectations on things you think you can handle, when the real fact is; Allah is the best planner?

nak ada rasa redha tu, payahnya... hanya Dia yang tahu. masih mencuba, but at times like this.. i think i've failed for the zillionth times.

:(

"Kau sekolah mana dulu? Hah?"

hmmm. nak tahu satu benda random tak?

currently, i'm doing my research paper punya assignment. and out of nowhere, i open new tab kat google chrome and guess..?

type kat youtube; MRSM PDRM dan scroll sampai jumpa this video.

students mrsm pdrm form 5 06/07


serius. random. okay.

and then terfikir this one thing.

agak agak, kalau bagi video nih pastu buat kuiz "Masihkah kau ingat nama nama mereka ini?", kompem ada yang garu kepala.

memori habis nih der. kalau tak ingat jugak... sila luku kepala sendiri sambil berkata, "Kau sekolah mana dulu? Hah?"

EPIC.

A cute zombie is looking for brains! Anyone? :p

words, are not enough to describe what is happening inside ma brain.

at this time, the thought of quitting can be quite disturbing, you know.
too tired to give up, too hardcore to stay the course. eh. mohon doa yang baik baik untuk penulis, pwetty pweaseee?

tak pernah sezombie begini. sampaikan nak tidur pun rasa serba salah, tahu? *tapi TERtidur jugak ah atas lantai depan laptop, heh*

takpelah. kalau qistina dah start bebel ceni, maksudnya takde ah dia zombie mana pun. habis kuat pun, eyebags dua ketul, otak tingtong weng weng, cakap merepek. macam dalam post ni. emergeeeed. what are you saying, qistina? say it again?

okay enough babbling, i need to save the words dalam kepala otak for research. jangan bazir semborono.

"Ujian hebat untuk orang hebat."

dok hebak sangat ah kalau mu dok stuck sini dok gerak gerak. mu gi cari brains nuh! -_-"

kbai. doa baik baik tau! jangan lupa, DOA! semoga Allah permudahkan urusan semua :)

"And seek assistance through patience and prayer, and most surely it is a hard thing except for the humble ones, Who know that they shall meet their Lord and that they shall return to Him." [2:45-46] <3

don't kebab.

dah hujung hujung sem ni, feeling dia lain macam sikit ah. entah, nak terang.. serba tak kena. serupa alah bisa tegal biasa. dah selalu sangat bergelumang dengan esaimen, sampaikan 1500 words tu standard buat 2 malam sebelum due date. bukan nak galakkan prokrastinasi dan sebagainya, bukan. cuma nak kata.. penat pikiaq esaimen, sampai kadang kadang tu tak rasa penat dah. rasa dah lali dengan last-minute work. i know this is not good, yes i'm aware of that. but frankly speaking, too tired to feel the penat.

and the fact that i tend to think too much at this period of time, really kills the entire me. rasa macam hopeless sangat bila fikir macam macam, and takde resolution, just.. fikir. maybe i need to get a good enough rest for a night, just to clear up my mind, maybe. but for sure not at this time.

sebab.. i've got 6000-words esaimens to be completed by Monday. 6000 tu, agaknya kalau muntah pun keluar words gamaknya. eh.

doakan okay! semoga Allah permudahkan urusan semua, iA <3 p/s : nak tengok kebab yang lazat? nah, tekan link nih untuk kebab yang enak lagi comel. eh.

life ain't easy, you know!

when things are getting complicated, (life ain't easy, you know!) i have this one habit. this one weird (?) habit.

google gambar gambar scenery yang cantik, nature shots (especially laut, sungai, anything that has to do dengan air), foto foto abstrak yang cun, and guess? i'll imagine myself being there at that right moment, embracing the whole perfect harmony of nature and its beauty, and try to put meaning to the abstract photos (of course why not?, cakap jiwang heh)

this could be the best therapy for me (so far), even secara physicallynya you're not there (not that close!).

so, whenever i post anything/photos about nature, abstract, etc (as listed), that explains the state of my mind at the moment. which-you-know-what, eh.

to tell you the truth.. life ain't easy, you know! okay tagline lame, kbai.

say only when you mean it.

i say words when i really mean them.

and when i say i do, i will always do, always. keep that in mind, and you shall never forget.

"..'cause she's awesome liddat, you know. to tell the truth, degil sebenarnya. blergh."

again and again

it happens again and again.

again and again, all i could ask for; pinjam kan kekuatan itu. kekuatan yang sama tara dengan ujian ini.

sungguh, saat ini baru terasa kerdilnya hamba ini. kerana hanya dengan sedikit ujian ini pun, merayu rayu meminta diberi kekuatan. apalah sangat nilai hamba yang tak reti bersyukur ni, kalau nak dibandingkan betapa ramainya lagi hamba yang hidup diberi ujian sentiasa, and yet masih menunaikan hak sebagai hamba itu?

kuat! and that's the most difficult word, after all. :(

somebody i used to know

selama almost twenty three years bernafas, jarang yang amat dia jatuh sakit. jarang, serius. habis teruk pun, sakit kepala. demam? susah yang amat.

but that was years back then.
sekarang dia tak fit macam dulu dah.

with aches all over the body and serious back pain too, it is hard to tell that she is having the time of her life now.

demam pun kadangkala menjengah, sakit kepala tu dah macam alah bisa tegal biasa.

"Everyone is facing the same thing too." "But the thing is, itu mereka. This is me, I know my own limits."

"Tapi Allah takkan bebani hambaNya dengan something yang dia tak mampu. Pernah dengar kan? Teruskan bertahan. Kuatkan semangat, pujuk diri jangan manja sangat. Jangan layankan sangat lemah lemah ni."

"Sungguh, kalau boleh share rasa ini, pasti yang mendengar tidak mahu. Kerana rasa itu sangat sukar hendak dirungkai, tersimpan rapi dalam hati. Tolong. Tolong doakan aku ya?"

dia tak tahu nak rasa macam mana. menurun, barangkali.

"Dan sungguh, Kami benar-benar akan menguji kamu sehingga Kami mengetahui orang-orang yang benar-benar berjihad dan bersabar di antara kamu; dan akan Kami uji perihal kamu." (47:31)

okay, dia memang patut nangis sekarang.

twenty... err, twenty-what?

i was looking at the list for the convoi team yang pegi trip Satun haritu, when i spontaneously said "Errr, for real, this is happening?"

No. Kereta : P**8088
Nama : Incik Ayah (bukan nama sebenar) (53 tahun)
Puan Ibu (bukan nama sebenar) (54 tahun)
Qistina (nama sebenar) (21 tahun)
Eiein (bukan nama sebenar) (17 tahun)

okay, now spot the most pelik fact about the details.



get it?
i also get it maaa, lagi cepat than uols tauuu. sebab i was 2 years younger daripada biasa, uols ade keee?

and straightaway, i asked him; "Ayah, ayah ingat dak cheq umoq berapa la ni?" "Ha, ingat. Hat dok tulis dalam kertas tu la kan?" "Ayahhh! Daklaaa! Cheq dah doploh tiga tahun dah ayah! Ayah tak ingat kaaa?" (Dalam hati bukan main suka lagi yeee, awet muda la konon)

the next reaksi ayah was "Laaaa, yaka? Bukan doploh satu ka?" sambil sengih sengih. mujur. mujur ayah cakap anak hat ni muda dua tahun. takdak la nak gelabah sangat, "eh awattt, muka dah ageing kaaa ayah dok ingat 27 tahun?"

kfoineee. meaning to say; you're not behaving the way you should behave. the age you should behave. come on qistina, this is not happening, you're not that sweet seventeen ke, sour twenty ke. be the twenty three, think like twenty three.

or.. Ayah nak cakap, "Hey you my only baby girl, forever jadi baby girl boleh?"

okay pengsan kalau ayah cakap face-to-face.
terima kasih ayah, you made my day! hikhiks :p

p/s : whatever it is, ingat. masa tak tunggu kita. mungkin harini kita doploh tiga. semalam doploh dua. esok? tengok tengok dah lima ploh lima. kalau pun sempat angka lima. kalau angka dua pun tak lepas? haru! time flies so fast that kejip mata pun boleh beza setahun, tahu? cakap pasal waktu hidup, bukan main pum pam pum pam, cakap pasal waktu mati? bunyi cengkerik krik krik krik. ni shoot diri sendiri ke hape nih qistina -_____-"

siapa cakap nak jadi cikgu, senang?

logicallynya, memang senang nak jadi cikgu. dahulu. zaman pak kaduk. era tok nenek kita. asal pass darjah 6, okay anda boleh keluar sekolah dan apply sebagai seorang guru. imagine, budak 12 tahun dah boleh masuk mengajar, memang tak dinafikan, itu dahulu. waktu pendidikan hanyalah sekadar ABC, 123.

tapi, kalau ada yang berkata nak jadi cikgu sekarang senang, meh sini. duduk elok elok, meh kita bincang baik baik kenapa hakikat sebenar untuk menjadi seorang guru makin susah.

kenapa rasa macam suasana tegang nih? okay chill qistina, chill.

last week, ada terjumpa this one senior. we talked a lot, about the future and how she's doing now, especially dengan posting and things like that. to my surprise, a lot of new things and new terms she told us, and those are really new to us. sangat baru, sampaikan we had no clue of those new things. maybe la ade, but salah qistina jugak sebab seperti katak di bawah tempurung, jarang yang amattt sekali nak beli newspaper, tengok berita apatah lagi. =___="

she shared a lot about her experiences. not to mention all of those, tapi seriously. to be a teacher je pun bukan calang calang orang sekarang. even you're in the system (contoh IPG or UPSI or other IPTAs), jawatan tu tak sure lagi dapat. you have to undergo interviews, for the lucky ones mungkin dapat penilaian khas, and untuk yang cepat maybe can apply for interim.

penilaian khas contohnya, she kept reminding us to fulfill the 3 main criteria; PNGK 3.5 and above, gred praktikum the least is A-, and dapat recommendation dari pihak kolej. okay boleh start garu kepala pikiaq dok kumpui Cs merata.

interview? to compete now dengan other graduates from the unis, you really have to be fully active, confident, everything must tip-top one lehhh. takkan interviewer nak tertarik kat orang koman koman ye dop? okay mungkin boleh garu hidung.

interim? she mentions about the other friends; senang nak dapatnya kalau apply kat sabah sarawak. kalau semenanjung, most probably johor, this is what she said. okay mungkin boleh garu mata?

to be honest, to be a teacher is one of my kanak-kanak ambitions. kalau dulu people keep saying, "Hey, be a teacher. Noble job kot." and i was like.. so? tapi once dah immersed dalam society pendidikan ni, dia punya feeling serius lain. rasa semangat nak ubah mentaliti masyarakat tu membuak buak. rasa macam tugas cikgu nih.. adventure dia kalah james bond.

tapi.. kadang kadang tu low self-esteem tu ada gak ah nak menerpa, menghasut. "Alah, belum tentu dapat position cikgu tu pun. Tak payah fikir sangat ah, kalau dapat, jadi. Kalau tak dapat, find a new job. End of story."

the thing is; kalau sekarang tak fikir, what are the other options i have?

housewife could be the best one, home-schooling anak anak, and at the end of the day; you're still a teacher kan? okay istilah anak anak itu nampak beno nipunye, advance sungguh teman ni haa!

ahhh, mana mana pun bagi habis final year dulu.

p/s : all these could be just my opinion. kalau ada salah silap, well, that's just opinion. sorry in advance then. peace yaww! ^______^"

suprise satun chillin' time!

sabtu lepas, arrived home safely for a-week holiday. should be tak balik pun, but i insisted of going back, like desperately i need to be at home. with things going on di maktab's life, i guess i've made the right decision. i just need space and time to get myself recharged, and this could be the right one. alhamdulillah, so far so good. the days are fully occupied dengan banyak benda, and the suprise ayah buat is the most highlighted one!

few weeks back, ayah asked me details about my passport and international stuffs. (like bila expiry date, no passport, what to do bila nak keluar negara, stuffs like that). i didn't think too much, just ingatkan, "oh ya, probably dia just nak isi those details kat form mana mana, nothing much nak bother pun kan." but when he kept mentioning about the expiry date, asking me to confirm again and again (in case anak dia ni, well..), dah mula syak wasangka something.

so i decided.. "I could have asked ibu about this, maybe she knows!" and yeah i did. so, tahap surprise tinggal 50 percent bila dapat tahu, we're going to Thailand!


gittew.

alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah, sesungguhnya aturan Allah itu cantik kan. sungguh, i didn't expect this vacation to be just like what i've been dreaming for - the beach (i've been longing for this lama dah!), the scenery, the quality time i had with loves, the good food (I ate a lot - seafood, banana split tak split, the tomyums; like seriously!), everything - just right timing, right places. no exact word shall describe the whole processes, it's just.. Masha Allah!


muzium, as expected kannn. hewhew


the sukaneka.


the seafood and banana split. murah oiii seafood sini, should try one!


makhluk ini sedang memikirkan masa depannya.. yang tak pasti. ahem.




candid, ce cari mana qistinaaa


tut tuttt, awesome baq hang!


this is how the pekan hat yai looks like. macam pekan rabu je weh!



the photos are just few, as compared to what i had experienced. :)

i learned a lot too, just to say that trying out different views of different people has taught me to be more considerate of others. mungkin masih belajar, but throughout this short vacation has bring something new in me - jangan expect orang untuk faham kita saja, kita yang kena faham orang dulu! this satun trip was actually anjuran kelab keluarga sekolah ayah, ramai gak ah pegi. konvoi dalam 15 kereta camtu, semua orang ade pe'el masing masing. siap ada sukaneka lagi, dan serius awesome baq hang! cikgu cikgu baya mak ayah kita sporting habis :)

Thai's culture - not so much different with ours. (except mat rempit dia sopan santun, tak rempit sangat ahhh macam superman kita LOL). they prefer to use their own language, just few yang dapat converse in English and Malay. helmet pun tak wajib pakai, boleh selamba badak je pegi town tak pakai. the most vehicle used kat sana - trak pikap cam Hilux tu. the people; quite friendly, mungkin few yang rude kat jalan, aksi potong memotong macam race tu ade je macam kat highway plus tu haa). for Muslim food and tempat semayang, iA mudah je nak cari kat this area, since most of them Muslims. this experience really makes me wonder; ini baru satu negara pergi dah discover a lot of new things, what about berapa ratus lagi negara? Allah dah cipta manusia ni berbangsa bangsa, bersuku kaum supaya kita boleh saling kenal. (Al Hujurat: 13) so whatcha been waiting for? go get your stuffs packed, plan your trip to anywhere you like, and explore! as if macam trip tu guna dua ringgit je kan, as if. make sure mampu, sesuai dan berbaloi jugak, okay?

rasa macam ejen travelling companies pulak. enough, enough Qistina. cikgu pelatih ini harus mulakan kerja sekolah bertimbun timbun, kerana masa cuti beliau hanya berbaki empat hari. hmmmmm

typical question; "ni form berapa nih? laaa, dah uni ka, awat muka budak budak sangat nih?" dah biasa dah, dah biasa sangat dah permainan lagu ni. -_-